Not fitting in

Alright so my mom is half Japanese and half Russian Jew so that would make me about 30% Asian. I always considered myself Asian, I mean I always get those stupid “oh I could blindfold you with a piece of floss” or I eat dogs jokes. (Which I never understood because my eyes aren’t small and I don’t think Japanese people ever ate dogs) but not the point…

Ever sense my mom had kids, she’s always been more proud to be Japanese because she never got to express that as a kid and never took the advantage of learning more about our family history or language when her mom was still alive so I’ve always liked to show that I am proud of my heritage because she never got to do that as a kid, also because I genuinely am proud.

People always tell me I look more Asian than my mom and my siblings & sometimes people get confused on my race, sometimes thinking I am hispanic or something of that sort. Anyways, I get confused, do I consider myself white or do I consider myself Asian?. On Reddit, I’ve seen full Asians say that it’s disrespectful to consider yourself Asian if you are mostly another race which I don’t understand. Considering I was raised most of my life with my Asian mom in an “Americanized” Asian household eating and speaking light Japanese.

Sorry if this was confusing, I just wanted to see others opinions or maybe even some people relating on being mixed a quarter of something. Hopefully some people understand what I’m trying to say lol

by hikoxo

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