I am a 15 year old male student. I am gifted, and I have a very deep interest in geopolitics and national security, so just for anonymity, I will only say that I live in one of the “Five Eyes” countries (the US, Canada, the UK, Australia, and New Zealand). When I was 8 years old, I was adopted by a single woman who has never been in a relationship, and she has no biological children so I am a single child. I always call her by her nickname “Kay” (Her real name is a traditionally Japanese name).
Kay is a 43 year old woman, but she seriously looks like she’s only in her late 20s! Kay looks like an adorable anime girl! She is Ryukyuan (native Okinawan), but she identifies as Japanese culturally. She’s got the most beautiful, shoulder-length black hair and thick bangs, and her body type of very slim and lean, and slightly muscular. She looks totally feminine, but she's actually a very rough tomboy. She's very athletic, and she played basketball in university. She still runs every day, but these days I feel like she's running away from me, metaphorically speaking.
I have never seen Kay as my mother, although she desperately wants me to call her “mom”. I have always seen her as my non-blood-relative mentor who just happened to raise me ever since I was 8 years old. For this reason, I want to be upfront and admit that I am very very attracted to Kay and I am in love with her.
This past July, a few days after my 15th birthday just to celebrate my birthday, Kay and I went on a hike with my friend who I will call “M”. He’s a 15 year old male too. It was a really hot and humid day, so before we got in the car, Kay took her shirt off and stripped down to nothing but a low-cut spaghetti strap sports bra and her basketball shorts. She spent the entire day wearing just her sports bra and shorts! I thought it was the best birthday gift ever lol.
Once we started the hike, Kay didn’t bother to carry any of the backpacks and bags, and she jokingly said that M and I are “old enough” so M and I carried everything. We joked a lot about Kay being “a princess”. After an hour of walking and exploring, the three of us sat down in a wooded area, and Kay was really relaxed and enjoying herself. But then M stood up and walked behind her, and he pretended to just take a moment and drink some water, but then he lunged at her back and grabbed her ponytail and grabbed her body with his other arm. As soon as he touched Kay’s hair, she screamed so loudly, and M told me jokingly to shove her legs open. She was crying as M held onto her. I thought it was all just a prank, some stupid skit, but I got so angry and I tackled M. Kay crawled away from us. She couldn’t stand up from the shock, so she got on her knees and hugged her chest with her arms and she started sobbing. I got on the ground with her and gently held her face and told her to look at me.
Kay was so scared and out of her mind that she told us that she wanted to go home, but after about 30 minutes of walking, she realized that we were totally lost. She reached into her pocket to grab her phone but she also realized then that she left her phone at the area where she was pranked. When she realized this, she started crying again. From this moment on, she never regained her composure. We spent literally 13 hours walking aimlessly, and she spent the entire time crying, and she was sweating so much nonstop. I’ll never get the scent of her sweat out of my nose. Also, her veins around her neck area sometimes stuck out because she was so tense and she was breathing so much. It was the first time in my entire life where I didn’t feel attracted to her at all. She was always muttering things “oh my God please” and “I don’t wanna” and other things for those hours. She stayed far away from both me and M, and she was scared of me too. Every time I took a step towards her, she grabbed her sports bra straps and begged me not to touch her.
Nowadays, Kay hates me! She hates me and she is scared of me. We always eat in separate rooms nowadays and during the few times where I did sit beside her, I saw tears coming out of her eyes but she was trying to hold herself together.
If she ever finds out that I'm in love with her in THAT way, then I don't know how badly it will hurt her.
by Original-Truth1331