I need some advice.
My current job is very stressful and management is terrible to work with. I work in IT doing support at a client company and have been told at all my job reviews that we get great feedback from the client on my work but my manager is extremely negative toward me making every day a struggle. They've put me in a leader role that I am not suited for and I have told them as much. When I express my issues they always say it's going well but then in the day to day work they react negatively to almost everything I do. I can now understand why they were having trouble filling this position. I think they can tell i want to quit because the upper management had mentioned it would be very difficult for them if I left. A few months ago another member of my team had a mental breakdown and had to leave, so I don't think this is only me feeling this way.
Everyday I wake up an hour or 2 before my alarm and get stuck thinking about what I will get told off for at work today. Then I feel so nauseous that i can't even brush my teeth because I start gagging so bad.
At work, they require me to meticulously enter my whole day's plans in my calendar there night before then it gets reviewed during the morning meeting. Based on the manager's mood he will either not really pay attention or start drilling me on why put things in the order I did then tell me to fix it. Because of this I spend so much time trying to make my calendar perfect when I still have other things I need to do.
I am currently looking for work, but my company is very strict about scheduling, making it difficult to get time off for interviews. I'm currently waiting to hear the results of a final interview at a new job, but if this falls through I feel like I need to quit anyway just for my own mental health. My wife is okay with me quitting as she is also worried about me. I have savings to last for a bit, but have a wife and kid. My wife works bit my daughter is on my insurance, so i worry what kind of impact it could have if I quit.
Sorry for the rambling post, but any advice on this situation or information I should know would be greatly appreciated.
by Hot-Pack9275