I sometimes feel silly for trying to learn japanese. I think I subconciously challenge myself like "why spend time on this?". There's nothing really that I can do with japanese that I can't already do with my known languages. I guess consume untranslated native content, which is neat, but translations usually exist. And I'm only moderately interested in japanese content anyways. Also no one around me uses this language from the other side of the earth.
I also kind of dread the thought of one day being conversationally fluent, but having attained it solely in my bedroom. Like then I know the language more or less, but so what? I struggle to articulate this feeling better than that. Maybe since learning japanese has become a hobby I kind of want to experience learning it with peers, but if I suddenly already know it well enough, then I wont really have that opportunity anymore. A little bit ridiculous.
This was a bit of a rant.
Anyone else feel this way sometimes? How do you deal with it?
edit: Thanks everyone for sharing your thoughts! It was nice to hear some different perspectives. I guess I felt a bit alone with this hobby that is sort of all about communication in my mind. But of course it's a valid hobby none the less. And if I seek a more social aspect then I should pursue it. It's just that my current life situation makes that a bit difficult so honestly maybe it was a rant on that in disguise.
by oilien