My Japanese study streak hit 90 days and I feel nothing 💀

Okay so I hit 90 days on my streak today.

Ninety. Days.

I thought I'd feel something. Some kind of transformation. Like I'd wake up and suddenly Japanese would just click and I'd be out here reading manga raw and watching anime without subtitles like it was nothing.

Instead I opened my app this morning, got a kanji wrong that I've gotten wrong like forty times already, and just stared at the screen.

Don't get me wrong, I know I've improved. A few months ago hiragana looked like decorative squiggles to me. Now I can at least read it slowly without wanting to cry.

But 90 days feels like it should come with some kind of reward and all I got was the realization that I still have years ahead of me 😭

I think I went in expecting Japanese to eventually feel easy. Now I'm starting to think it just goes from impossible to slightly less impossible and you just have to be okay with that.

Still not quitting though. Mostly out of stubbornness at this point.

Anyone else hit a milestone and feel weirdly empty about it? Or is that just me 💀