So as the title says I have extremely bad ADHD and memory. Throughout my whole life I have struggled in school with focusing in class and always zoning out that I barely managed to pass.
I have been learning Japanese for 2 years and I am still barely at N5 level.
I have tried anki but my mind can’t remember the words at all. I try input basic N5 videos which I can understand about 80% but I find it extremely hard to concentrate and my mind always wanders away so I can never even finish the video at all. I get only around 2-3 minutes in and it just happens even if I try really hard. I even try shorter things but for some reason my mind zones out straight away.
I have tried textbooks like Tae kims grammar guide and Genki etc. but I can never focus and always zone out and I also try to add the kanji/vocab in those textbooks to anki yet I still can’t remember at all.
I even try gameified apps, I do have a 622 day streak in Duolingo but as you know, it is really horrible when it comes to learning.
I’ve began to grow tired of learning japanese even though I really don’t want to. I am at such a wall in progress for these 2 years. I really want to learn the language but I just can’t. I am upset as I have Japanese friends and I want to talk to them in Japanese but I feel like a hassle to them since I can’t, even though I really try hard.
Am I cooked?
EDIT: Thankyou everyone for the advice I really appreciate it so much, I will try my best to do the things everyone suggested
by bensabyss