I have only been living here for 6 months and now attending a japanese language school and will be attending a regular japanese school next year (will not disclose what level). I didnt really think too much about it but lately i have been overthinking things that might sound very silly…
I know that as a foreigner i will never 100% understand the culture and stuff even when i try to be as normal and polite as possible i cant help but think if i did/say something wrong even though i think i didnt? Recently i did an exchange event where a japanese family hosted a dinner for me and it was actually very pleasent and everything went well but after i was consumed by the overwhelming anxiety i did something wrong.
At this point im kinda scared that it will turn into a social anxiety? Even after years of me living here there will be some things that i will do wrong and theres nothing i can do to help that but i really need to reduce this kind of fear but i just dont know how. I think the fact that my image of japanese people is still pretty much revolves around their tatemae so its really giving me a hard time knowing if im reading too much into their expression or they were actually genuine.
by resurrectedemonlord