Hello guys im not sure this is the right place to post but i need help
Im in a tough spot in life and this is adding in the stress
Through out my life being japanese and women and short and being able to speak English ive got many weird guys coming for me caue of the porn and anime industry in japan
Ive gotten dense and used to it until one point someone nearly raped me and i had to quit college due to mental issues and everything went downfall since
Now i have ptsd against men who seem to just like japnese women And in the last one month one 30 yed old guy at my college said he wants me to be his gf and im 19 thats already weis and he was also the guy who often said he wants a japnese wife
And today my friend from the state confessed to me saying he likes me but i think he only likes me cause im japanese since he alays tells me he wants to go to japan and date girls like this anime chatacger and even tho we are friends now before he often made many sexual comments abt me for being japanese (honestly i dont like him at all as a person but weve know each other for a while and have common friends)
Its kind of breaking me and im lowkey becoming sui/cidal cause my identity is causing so much trouble and i really dont know what to do
Is there any ways to just never get any weirdos to come to me and anyway to just let it go to the past with so many terrible experiences? Itried searching on reddit but as i search i just kept getting backfired by weid posts fetishizing japnese women and it makes me feel disgusted pls help
My major probably doesnt help too since im in mechanical engineering and whether in japan or not may of them like anime and its terrible
by Flimsy_Dish_101