Even if I have the Japanese accent, and in JHS, I still won't find a true Japanese friend who'd give me the homie vibes, As for my school life it's lonely and the Japanese friends i made in my second year are now acting as if I never met them, My parents won't care about my school and myself. Now here I am living like total idiot, scrolling mindlessly through social platforms and more or less have no motivation to study for my upcoming exams, I rarely talk with my parents since their busy with whatever work they have. The most shameful thing is that I score the lowest in my grade as a student who is one year older than them and have no friends. My English teacher is well, he won't accept any other vocabs used in English exam that aren't in his stupid dictionary. I have failed at many aspects of life, never made my dad proud and happy, My mother thinks I'll never change and never grow up mentally, My life been total hell rn, Its like im totally broken from inside and completely lost. Im fighting with my parents often regarding my HS and career matter. My dad thinks he knows everything in Japan since he's been in Japan for 30+ years, but in reality he knows almost knows no Japanese and the struggles of his own son. I'm really hopeless, Lazy, a Failure, living like a burden to my parents. No matter how many times I try, I'll always get sent back square one. Even if i go back to my country, I'll be have to study for 3 more years, which is very much pain.
I would apologize for this weird post, I believe everyone has their own problems far greater than mine. Of course, after a matter of trying a lot I guess, I'll somehow find a way out of this mess.
EDIT: I've received lots of responses and honestly reading them gave me hope, I'll TRY to study and enjoy my life and make some progress, ha, silly me for overdosing myself with all that internet crap from Doom scrolling, I'll get back to work asap after this, Thanks alot for your time on helping me out.
–ALSO I AM GONNA MAKE A POST SOMEWHERE ON MARCH ABOUT MY RESULTS OF HIGH SCHOOL ENTRANCE EXAM AND ASK QUESTIONS ABOUT COLLEGE IN JAPAN.
by Prior-Pea9372