I know it’s not a no, but the being in limbo part has me crushed. I hate getting my hopes up if nothing ends up working out. I tried SO hard to keep positive and I felt in my heart that I was going to make it so to see that I was alternate just made me kind of fall apart. I know it’s like being 75% of the way there, but it just feels like not enough, you know? I’m a general ed elementary school teacher and it’s so difficult to be in limbo like this because of contracts and worrying about transferring schools or leaving in the middle of the year (if I do get upgraded August-December).
Anyone else feel this way? I feel silly for crying because it’s not a no… it’s just:(
My coworkers were very sweet because I ended up reading the email in front of them (they’ve been asking about it, they really want this to work out for me) and hyped me up. One even brought me candy and a nice note today. I have a great support system so I’m sure I’ll get through the negative feelings.
by Criticalpurr